Sunday, November 27
i saw him. it was awesome.
but now its just gonna be worse. im gonna think about him more.
i am so mother fucking emo.
Saturday, November 26
holy. mother. i dont think anyone is funna read this. hott.
so, i thought everything was going really good. i was so happy. but now im questioning things. i dont like questioning. especially when the answers are not easy to acquire.
and whenever i tell or ask this one person something, they give me stupid answers or ask why. gggrrrrrrrrr. i just wanna know. so i can... i dont actually know what. UUGGGHHHHH. whatever. i dont care. i shouldnt care. i dont care.
im telling myself i dont care. but im a damn liar.
why do i care?!
and then i think i know the answer to that question. but i dont want it to be true. actually, i do. well. if he did, i would. but it doesnt matter what i want, because its nothing i have any control over. i try to tell myself its not true. not real. that i dont know what im talking about.
but, once again. im a damn liar.
i have a boyfriend. and i like him.
this time im not a damn liar.
but i am SO CONFUSED. peace <3