Thursday, March 27
it's weird how long i've had this blog. and how much randomness is in it. and then there's my emo-ness from junior year that i don't think anyone read, thank goodness.
well, now i'm in college. crazy.
i just read a friend of mine's old blogs of venting similar to my super-emo ones, and they kinda describe how i'm feeling now.
i've been with my boyfriend for almost 2 years [will be 2 yrs exactly in 6 days] but like. idk. we've broke up and got back together like twice. and then... well nevermind about that.. but idk.
i love him. i really do. but he's all i've ever had. all i've ever known.
sometimes i just want more.
i wanna experience other things. being single in college and doing whatever i want. not like, whore myself. but like, idk. sometimes i feel like he holds me back.
also, he's moving up here in the fall. same apt complex as me. which makes it difficult. he's moving up here basically for me. but i kinda wanna break up.
well, i should really be studying for my calc3 quiz that's in like an hour. blahhhh.